*jumps with glee*

in other news, i’m totally slacking this semester. my boss has been without a secretary for a couple of months now and i feel that i’m letting my responsibilities there overshadow my academic goals. i cant keep up the effort to handle both and i’m terrified that i’m not going to pass this semester.

oh, and 80s nights at the v. that needs to stop taking priority as well…

http://www.timesonline.co.uk/tol/comment/faith/article5324234.ece

considering the majority of you probably won’t click on the link, i want to point out a specific part of the article that caught my eye:

“There is a core experience that is essentially the same across cultures. Christians don’t see Hindu gods and Hindus don’t see Jesus, so there is some kind of cultural overlay, but we are dealing with people attempting to put an ineffable experience into words. There’s a common core that has as its basis the fact that we all have very similar brains, so when things go awry we are likely to have similar experiences.”

the concept of life after death is something i have always been interested in, but never really took the time to explore until recently. a few months ago i was sharing some thoughts (and some beer) with a couple of friends from my hometown, and we were discussing religion vs. science and what each has to do with the afterlife. i remember this specifically because one of my friends turned to me and said,

“i don’t really understand the mechanics of either side. i don’t believe in God or religion, but i also could never understand the purpose of life if we cease to exist after we die.”

meaning that while he may not be a spiritual man, he certainly believes in the afterlife. now, i was raised in church and spent 3 days a week for 15 years devoted to reading the Bible and studying Christianity. while my thoughts on the Bible differ greatly from others (we’ll save that for  a different entry on a different day) i still very much believe in God and the possibility of Heaven and Hell.

it never dawned on me that people who do not follow a faith (whether Christianity, Buddhism, Hinduism, Doaism, etc) still consider the possibility of an afterlife. what do they imagine the afterlife to consist of? how do their thoughts differ from my own?

i’m becoming obsessed with death. i thought i could take a month off and forget about school for a while, but as soon as i turned in my last paper i instantly wanted to research for next semester.

wtf? i want a break!

all in all, i think it went well. and by well, i mean i received a great deal of suggestions. over the next few months i need to narrow them down and decide which i would like to take, which i need to disregard, and which i can work with in developing something new.

now i just have 2 paper, a presentation, and a show and this semester is officially OVER!!

*hugs nearest beer bottle*

i only have 8 more things to finish by friday and i’m hopeful that i’ll get half of those scratched off the list by the time i go to work this evening. *crosses fingers*

i’ve been thinking recently of returning to the darkroom next semester for my current series. at the beginning of the year i felt that color was too important to disregard, but after examining and reexamining and rereexamining my images, i’ve realized there are only a few that necessitate color. 

i miss the darkroom. i miss using film!!! half of the love i have for photography is received during the process of making the prints, and this semester i only have to print a transparency and transfer that image using acetone. the process isn’t enough. 

i dont know. hopefully i can get my medium format fixed over break and just begin shooting using both film and digital next semester…

i took my GRE yesterday and missed making my goal by 40 points. that blows. like, hard. i was pissed and upset and depressed and spiraled through the whole “i’m not good enough, i’m not smart enough” phase until finally settling on a bottle of wine and a religious debate with a friend. that helped. i feel more energized and ready to face the world today than i have in months. 

my kitsch paper is awesome. i’m too opinionated and there’s still quite a bit of work to be done, but i’m excited and i enjoyed writing it, surprisingly.

speaking of being happy, i LOOOOOOOOOOOVE my smith hall project now! i’ve shot a completely different idea every damn week of this semester, and today – the day before it is to be displayed – i came up with an idea that just makes me smile. i’ve told about 10 people so far and haven’t even received a giggle, but i think it’s funny and that’s enough for me.

i will surely pay for that this coming week. awesome.

i’m very apprehensive to hang my work in the gallery this coming friday. considering our class time, it wont really give us the chance to discuss our finished projects before they are in the gallery for all the world to see. i need to figure out how to print the images as well. i really dont want them to be framed, but hanging digital prints without frames seems a bit too loose for me.

i’m tired. i dont really know what i’m saying. my retail job is biting my ass.

anyhoo, i have two new images to add to my series. one is of a hungarian soccer player who jumped out of a window. not only did a find a soccer player to photograph, but he’s also from hungary. *applauds self*

the other is of Assia Wevill. she was the mistress to sylvia plath’s husband at the time of sylvia’s suicide, and years later – after living with the ghost of sylvia – committed suicide herself. she killed her child and placed her on a spare mattress, and then took a bottle of pills and killed herself. i really, really like my image for this person and i’m excited to show it. 

to be honest (and hey, it’s okay if i’m biased) i’m generally excited about all of my images for this series. i’ve been wanting to work on this for a couple of years now and finally have the access to follow through. i am positively terrified for my 9 hour review (i despise public speaking) and can rarely say what i’m thinking, but let’s keep those fingers crossed that i make it through.

also, i still hate ansel adams.

my problem is in deciding what text to add. i researched and gathered interesting quotes from each person that i have photographed 

ie: “i knew i belonged to the public and to the world, not because i was talented or even beautiful, but because i had never belonged to anything or anyone else.” -norma

so i’m thinking that underneath the actual image, i would have the  title (the individual’s first name) and then a small quote that describes either how they viewed life or how they viewed their work.

however, i dont want it to come off as too heavy or over-dramatic. i think i’m going to go ahead and put together my ideas for the critique next week and decide after i get feedback. (that is, if i get feedback…)

“the eradication of art in traditional landscape photography”

how bad ass.

i’m gonna be a pleasure in class tomorrow…