Wallflower

my jerry uelsmann book finally arrived and will hopefully grant me the ability to finish my kitsch paper this weekend. i had really planned on finishing everything over the week, but i went to my hometown for the first time this semester and ended up spending the week drinking instead.

i will surely pay for that this coming week. awesome.

i’m very apprehensive to hang my work in the gallery this coming friday. considering our class time, it wont really give us the chance to discuss our finished projects before they are in the gallery for all the world to see. i need to figure out how to print the images as well. i really dont want them to be framed, but hanging digital prints without frames seems a bit too loose for me.

i’m tired. i dont really know what i’m saying. my retail job is biting my ass.

i’ve seriously fallen behind on this whole post-a-blog-a-day thing. odd, considering how much i love to talk.

anyhoo, i have two new images to add to my series. one is of a hungarian soccer player who jumped out of a window. not only did a find a soccer player to photograph, but he’s also from hungary. *applauds self*

the other is of Assia Wevill. she was the mistress to sylvia plath’s husband at the time of sylvia’s suicide, and years later – after living with the ghost of sylvia – committed suicide herself. she killed her child and placed her on a spare mattress, and then took a bottle of pills and killed herself. i really, really like my image for this person and i’m excited to show it. 

to be honest (and hey, it’s okay if i’m biased) i’m generally excited about all of my images for this series. i’ve been wanting to work on this for a couple of years now and finally have the access to follow through. i am positively terrified for my 9 hour review (i despise public speaking) and can rarely say what i’m thinking, but let’s keep those fingers crossed that i make it through.

also, i still hate ansel adams.

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/21134540/vp/27652443#27652443

okay, i’ve decided that i’m making a mock coffee table book with the digital prints in my Immortality series. i plan to print it (a year or so from now, once i’ve completed the series) using blurb to make it look very clean, sharp, and professional. (as professional as a non-published book can look.

my problem is in deciding what text to add. i researched and gathered interesting quotes from each person that i have photographed 

ie: “i knew i belonged to the public and to the world, not because i was talented or even beautiful, but because i had never belonged to anything or anyone else.” -norma

so i’m thinking that underneath the actual image, i would have the  title (the individual’s first name) and then a small quote that describes either how they viewed life or how they viewed their work.

however, i dont want it to come off as too heavy or over-dramatic. i think i’m going to go ahead and put together my ideas for the critique next week and decide after i get feedback. (that is, if i get feedback…)

the more i read over my paper for seminar the more upset i get over adams’ work. it’s starting to piss me off. i finally came up with a title this morning, though.

“the eradication of art in traditional landscape photography”

how bad ass.

i’m gonna be a pleasure in class tomorrow…

i fumbled when my friend sent me information via text messaging that proposition 8 had passed in california. proposition 8. passed. with all of the support (both emotionally and financially) that people have received to vote NO to prop 8, i honestly could not fathom such a ludicrous ban passing. call me naive. call me crazy. call me an insane dyke fag hag, but it’s two thousand and motherfucking eight. gay rights shouldn’t even be an issue.

marriage equality is a BASIC HUMAN FUCKING RIGHT. i joined a group on facebook a couple of years ago that was titled “Don’t Like Gay Marriage? Then Don’t Get One and Shut the Fuck Up.” homosexuals aren’t asking for world domination…just the right to say I Do and be recognized as a married couple in the United States of America. there’s a proposition that passed in Arkansas banning gay parenting. 

i can understand why…….you dont want the gay to rub off on your children.

to quote my beautiful friend Kate and her loving girlfriend Christina, “we believe that our love is stronger than anyone’s love if that anyone would vote against love.”

FUCK you california.

did everybody vote today?!?!

if not you still have a few moments left. leave. right now. wherever you are and whatever you’re doing, the future depends on YOU!

it was heaven, but i’m exhausted.

however, i wanted to post the pics from my newest critique. all i have right now are the digital files and i cannot for the life of me figure out how to scan my transfers (that i looooove) without getting 8428425671 pieces of dust on them. help? please?!

anyway, i’m becoming more and more and more more more excited about this series the more i work on it. i think my work is improving (but maybe i’m just biased?) and i hope to eventually complete this as a kick ass series.

anyhoo, here are my images. the photo of anne sexton is my favorite. i sleep with it every night…

EDIT: i realize all the images posted twice but i’m far too tired to try and figure out the reason as to why that happened…